Regrets

I've been following a blog for about 2 years now- first started out as a home improvement blog, turned infertility, turned pregnancy, turned mommy blog- Becoming Mom. Ariana has recently started doing photography professionally and I LOVE looking at the pictures. But yesterday morning, as Rowan started playing I thought to myself that he doesn't have any baby left in his face (maybe its just me, but being a toddler is right around the corner!) And yesterday Ariana posted some newborn pics and its breaking my heart! NOT because I'm having baby fever, but because we decided not to get pro. newborn pics done and I REALLY regret that now. It haunts me. Really.

When Rowan was born a photographer even stopped by our room to see if we wanted some done before we left the hospital. There were some serious health concerns at that time- his heart and his severe jaundice- and Nate and I were a MESS. In my head I was thinking, "I don't want to remember this pain... I don't want pictures documenting it." And to organize myself enough to get pics taken- YEAH RIGHT! When we came home, he still looked sick, I was still hurting, and didn't want to have pictures of my sickly looking baby. Now every time I see newborn pics I want to cry because we hardly have any pictures of him when he was really little, and I know now that I wouldn't care how ill he looked, he was still a beautiful baby and the pictures would have been beautiful! And to see him NOW... ugh, it kills me!

So lesson of the week- take pictures of your newborn, no matter how much you think you wont want those memories.